Down memory lane, the story of our three Devon lads had only just begun - and so had ours. One year earlier Marion renounced to go on our new school’s skiing trip in order to see a Bush concert. Guess who supported them on that same tour and that specific concert… Infected by the festival fever, in 2001 we saw the likes of Foo Fighters (Dave Grohl is clearly the best person in the world), Faithless, Tool, Iggy Pop, Queens of the Stone Age, The Hives, Green Day, The Prodigy, Stone Temple Pilots and The Ataris (…not!).
Looking back, I realize how much this particular year has influenced me. This was where it all started. Things would never be the same afterwards. Our generation’s nemesis was September 11th. Everyone remembers where he was, and with whom, when it happened. This year was characterised by so many spectacular things – both unbelievably positive and utterly dreadful. Musically, 2001 was the year my taste was conditioned and shaped lastingly - personally too. In my memories this is the year of an endless summer - and of falling in and out of love. With Origin of Symmetry my personal story with Muse began. From the lullaby-ish opener New Born (a title well chosen, for it describes the feeling this then young listener had, once the track was over) to the spherical outro of Megalomania: it. was. un-be-lievable. I still vote for Plug in Baby as the song designed to shape a decade, maybe a young century even. Feeling Good is one of the unlikeliest cover versions ever – and brilliantly so. Fair enough, lads! Bliss and Hyper Music: enigmatic escalation. Whenever I listen to Bliss I always wish I could one day become this person Matt is singing about: someone whose soul can’t hate anything. I reckon this to be the state of inner happiness. Showbiz only hinted what Origin of Symmetry manifested: the creation of something so different, no other band would ever achieve to sound like it. Something so different it didn’t give a flying fuck about any kind of trend. There were walls to be torn down, and this band was ready to do it, brick by brick. There were boundaries to break and lines to be crossed. There was a piano to be played. And there was a guitar-god in the making, who played the riffs of several lifetimes at the beginning of one song. Things would never sound the same anymore. This record might not be their best. It might not be the one with the greatest impact, success, or popularity – but it was the one I related to in the first place, finally being ready at the right time. It simply marked my point of entrance into the universe according to Matt Bellamy.
Soundtrack of our lives:
Island in the sun – Weezer Schism – Tool Last Nite – The Strokes Toxicity – System of a Down (Süssem!) Wish you were here – Incubus The lost art of keeping a secret – Queens of the Stone Age Tribute – Tenacious D Analog Boy – RX Bandits Hands Down – Dashboard Confessional Fell in love with a girl – The White Stripes
I just came across the huge artivel in The Times newspaper and it made me seriously sad for some reasons. I'd like to share it here. I don't want to say that but I have the feeling that this gonna be Muse' last days...
Published in The Times on June 20th 2010
How three geeky lads from Devon took on the pop world - and won
Lounging by the pool of a Sunset Strip hotel is a milksop, skinny-malink Brit tourist in bad shorts. His rodenty face sniffs the Los Angeles air, pondering food. It’s lunchtime, and he’s not long up. His spriggy hair, styled by hangover and pillow, wafts in the breeze. A fashion-backwards T-shirt hangs off his meagre shoulders. 5ft 7in in his terry-towelling socks and invisible if he turns sideways, this pasty Englishman won’t be going near the water lest one of the sunbathing LA hunks sits on him.
Meet Matt Bellamy, anti-rock star. Singer and songwriter, pianist and guitarist, fond of playing the latter behind his head. Sci-fi enthusiast, conspiracy theorist. A 32-year-old former painter and decorator (“It is,” he confirms, “all about the preparation”) so concerned by the threat of impending planet-wide doom that he’s stockpiled a two-year supply of freeze-dried emergency rations. He has it stored in the cellars of his villa in Lake Como in Italy. George Clooney is a neighbour.
His band, Muse, are the geeks who have inherited, if not the Earth, then at least the hearts, minds and concert-ticket money of the world’s youth. And, increasingly, the not so youthful. This month, the trio from small-town Devon (Teignmouth, pop: 14,413) also lay claim to a few hundred acres of prime rock-festival real estate: they headline the Pyramid Stage on the pivotal Saturday night at Glastonbury. It’s an auspicious moment for old schoolfriends Bellamy, drummer Dom Howard, 32, and bass player Chris Wolstenholme, 31. How will Muse, known for their concert spectaculars, top their normal shows for this special occasion? “We’re thinking we’ll get an orchestra,” says Bellamy.
It’s hard to imagine this stick-thin dweeb commanding the attention of 100,000 festival-goers. But put him on a stage – ideally backed by the lasers, towers, bells, whistles and occasional acrobats that have helped Muse become one of the greatest live bands today – and Bellamy gains in stature. They say television adds 10lb to those who appear in front of the cameras. Muse’s arena and stadium shows add a good 2ft, and a grandstanding aura, to their frontman. And now that Bono’s injured back has resulted in U2 pulling out of their Friday headline slot, the leader of the pomp-rock threesome – widely regarded as the biggest British band on the planet in 2010 – is the biggest rock’n’roller at this summer’s biggest festival.
Over the past year Muse have shot to the top of rock’s premier league. The Resistance, their fifth album, has sold 2.6 million copies, propelled by its lead single Uprising. They have recorded a song for the upcoming third Twilight film, making a hat-trick of soundtrack appearances in the vampire franchise. In 2007 they were the first band to perform at the new Wembley Stadium. They sold it out – twice. Muse played to 150,000 fans – and to some trapeze artists in balloons that they had anchored above the stage. In Muse’s view, if a job’s worth doing, it’s worth doing with giddy, over-the-top enthusiasm.
It is, in a way, the same with Bellamy and his attempts to act like a rock star offstage. Even when he dresses in a manner he imagines befits a millionaire pop idol (which he is to Muse’s hugely passionate fanbase), he gets it a bit wrong. He and his bandmates went out to an LA bar the other night and “ended up meeting” Rod Stewart. By unhappy coincidence Bellamy was wearing exactly the same outfit as the 65-year-old: pinstriped trousers, a waistcoat and a grey suit jacket.
Still, that sounds like an improvement on the trousers he wears during the week I spend with Muse in LA, at the Coachella Festival and then Mexico City: colour-flecked slacks seemingly purchased at C&A sometime in the early Eighties. And definitely an improvement on the clothes he once had to wear to the Q Awards after locking himself out of his house. “A floral shirt, a pair of red Adidas sweatpants and a weird silver hat. My summer civvies,” he recalls of the garb he wore to collect a trophy from the music magazine. “It gave the game away, actually. I’m not in a rock band at all. I’m just a pretty lame kid in funny clothes.”
If you find Radiohead too cool, Coldplay too soppy and U2 a bit past it, then Muse are the stadium band for you. They are Queen meets Abba, flamboyantly cod-operatic and absurdly melodic, and so unfashionable that they are, after years of outsider status, strangely fashionable. “Tom Waits and opera music – two of my favourite live environments, where the set design is just really theatrical and interesting,” offers Bellamy, a man who performs wearing flashing plastic children’s sunglasses. His other motivation for spending a fortune on stage presentation: “Not wanting to do something the same as everyone else.”
After Glastonbury, Muse are doing another world tour of stadiums. “We are making a giant pyramid with a video eyeball on top, and we’re playing inside it.” Bellamy will also be wearing a suit on which films can be played. The singer will be part guitar hero, part television. He’ll be the first performer ever to get his hands on such a suit. “Lady Gaga wants one but we’ve beaten her,” he confides proudly. Anything else? “A UFO is going to appear and give birth to an alien, over the audience’s head. I’m not joking.”
Muse have headlined Glastonbury before, in 2004. But even Wolstenholme admits they weren’t sure they deserved the slot. “We didn’t know if we were ready for it. And the press were going, ‘What’s this all about? Who do they think they are?’” There’s another shadow over Muse’s last Glastonbury appearance: shortly after watching the band’s set on the Pyramid Stage, Howard’s father collapsed and died from a heart attack.
“It was the best and worst day of my life in one go,” the drummer says quietly. “It’s a bit weird for me going back, really. People say, ‘You’re doing Glastonbury. It’s gonna be great, isn’t it?’ And I’m like, ‘Well, I dunno. It might be f****** s*** and I might not enjoy it.’ ” Wolstenholme remembers: “It was an extreme high and an extreme low. It’s gonna be strange going back, but maybe we need to be able to associate it with a happy memory. At the time it was probably the best gig we’d done. And unfortunately it’s not remembered for that.”
Glastonbury, then, will be a challenge on many levels. Howard’s mother and sister are coming this year. “It’ll be an emotional time for the family, for sure. But, you know, music’s a great thing to do. It can provide a great deal of positivity, playing and listening to it. That’s the only reason I’m going back: to play. I don’t think I’d go back just to hang about. That’d just be a bit strange. These guys are talking about hanging around for the weekend. But I don’t think I can really do that. But playing to a load of fans is gonna be the thing that makes me go there and get through it.”
Muse did not have a conventional route to success. While other bands rocketed up the middle of the rock road, Muse crawled up via the margins, doing their own thing. Failing to get noticed by the mainstream record industry, they turned to a Cornish recording studio to fund their first EPs. When they were finally signed, it was by a small record label.
In hip music circles, they were derided as over-earnest West Country bumpkins making daft songs with titles like Space Dementia and Apocalypse Please. They were pale copyists of Thom Yorke and co. They were prog-rock spods and had the fruity organ solos to prove it. If you liked Muse you also played World of Warcraft and were possibly bullied. If you liked Muse you were not cool. Bellamy, Howard and Wolstenholme knew this. They were not bothered. In fact they were almost proud of being unfashionable and being able to walk down the streets largely unrecognised. But still… why were Muse so unhip?
“Our music was just too weird,” says Howard with a shrug. “A lot of bands come fully formed: great first album, good songs, look cool, right attitude – they’ve got the whole thing. Whereas we were kids – from Devon! – who didn’t know any better. We were just learning step by step the whole time. We weren’t that Cool New Band. So we’ve always been on the fringes. It’s still like that.” As well as relishing their contrary-Mary position, Muse also embrace their occasional naffness. Ask Bellamy if summer 2010 feels like a golden moment in the life of this proudly off-message rock band and he replies: “Well, it’s always been sort of… beige.”
The names of the school bands that the three members of Muse separately played in – Gothic Plague, Carnage Mayhem, Fixed Penalty – did not suggest future greatness. But in 1994 Bellamy, Howard and Wolstenholme came together as a trio. They were Rocket Baby Dolls and tomorrow belonged to them. Except it didn’t. Rocket Baby Dolls quickly, sensibly, changed their name to Muse. The trio decided to forgo university places in favour of staying in Teignmouth and building on their strong local following. “Then all our friends f***ed off to uni and we had no fans,” remembers Howard. “We had to start from scratch. Doing as many gigs as possible in the local area. We did that for five years.”
They had to work hard. Bellamy points out: “We all came from nothing. People don’t think that when they look at us. They probably think we’re university boys or well-to-do middle-class guys. But all our parents have northern England working-class backgrounds.” Bellamy’s mum and dad divorced when he was “12 or 13”, and he has a brother in Leeds and a sister in Sheffield. “I know that our backgrounds are a bit more hardy than people would probably imagine when they look at us,” he continues, “especially when they see us on stage and the way we dress and all the b******s we talk about. But we have the kind of background that means we stick through rough times more than other people would.”
Muse forged a reputation as a hard-gigging outfit early on. Bellamy gave up his post-school career as a painter and decorator and abandoned his other pipe dream of flying paramotors, the jetpack-like motorised gliders with which he planned to become an “extreme cameraman”, filming concerts and sporting events. Instead, the band was everything. And still is. Muse are fiercely protective of their brand. When Céline Dion called her Las Vegas show Muse, the rock band sued her and won.
For Wolstenholme, this all-consuming lifestyle would take its toll. Partly this was due to his wife becoming pregnant with their first child just as Muse signed a record deal at the end of 1998. Because they weren’t the latest cool band from Manchester or London and therefore couldn’t rely on favourable press or radio coverage, “Our management and our record company just had us doing everything. You have no say over what you wanna do. And they don’t give a f*** about time off, or about family. All they give a f*** about is making as much money as possible.”
To compound matters, Wolstenholme became “a raging alcoholic”. He reveals this to me, unbidden and unprompted, at the end of our first interview, in the band’s opulent hotel in Desert Springs, a few miles from the Coachella Festival site. “I was worse on tour in the early days. But at home it got to a point where I realised I didn’t have to stay sober ’cause I didn’t have a gig to do. So it was just a licence to drink all the time. I was waking up in the morning and filling up a pint glass half full of whatever spirit I had in the house and then topping it up with squash so no one knew what I was drinking,” he confesses.
He’d follow this “breakfast” with a chaser of “10 to 15 pints during the day, even when I was at home. Then in the evening I’d go on to wine: two bottles of wine. Then I’d normally finish the day as I started it: take the pint glass up to bed, drink half, so there was always something by the bedside for me in the morning, ha ha,” he laughs, nervously.
Wolstenholme repeats this account of the depths of his addiction, almost word for word, when we speak again backstage at the Foro Sol stadium in Mexico City. His eagerness to tell all is a mark of the bluff amiability of the sturdy, tattooed bass player (he’s a good foot taller than the compact Bellamy and Howard), and of how Muse barely do any interviews these days; they don’t need to, and their heavyweight US management company, Q Prime (also shepherds to Red Hot Chili Peppers and Metallica), forms a ridiculously protective phalanx around them. After eight months on tour he’s perhaps starved of outside conversation. And, I suspect, Wolstenholme’s chattiness is also an aspect of the painful rehab/therapy process that he initiated midway through the making of The Resistance.
“I was pretty bad. But I had a realisation one day: my dad died when he was 40 from alcoholism. And I was well on the way to that. I was in such a bad way it’s questionable whether I’d be alive now.” Wolstenholme’s therapist told him that his drinking “was my way of dealing with any kind of negativity whatsoever in my life”. As he detoxed, “I had a good week of no sleeping, shaking, feeling like I was gonna pass out. It was pretty horrible. But luckily I had five months before going on tour to get all that out of my system.
“I felt like I was really getting somewhere with it,” Wolstenholme continues, clutching an iced coffee (“My new drug”), his fingernails bitten to the quick. “Then we started touring and it was like giving up all over again. I had to have the minibar in my hotel room cleared. I got my own tour bus so I didn’t have to be around [the band]. I didn’t want to be one of those killjoys. It’s my problem; it’s not fair to drag everybody else into it.” He says he still finds it difficult. “There is a lot of partying on tour. You feel a bit left out sometimes. You can’t join in. But you have to think about the more important things in life, like your family, your kids [a fifth child is on the way].”
Certainly, Bellamy hasn’t slowed down on the party front. When I talk to him in Mexico City he has a raging hangover. After three hours’ sleep, he is hiding behind expensive sunglasses, and despite seven weeks on tour in America and three days in Mexico, he is paler than normal. Last night he entertained 55,000 screaming Mexicans with a thumpingly epic baroque’n’roll performance. He wound down by drinking with the road crew until 8am.
During our second interview, at Coachella, Bellamy had talked about the books that had “seeped” into the writing of The Resistance, such as Cormac McCarthy’s Blood Meridian, which he says “gets right into the core of the dark side of warfare”. Accordingly, there’s “a certain fighting spirit, I suppose, in songs like Uprising. I’ve had a subtle interest in warfare through my family.” When I ask him what he means by that, he explains that his uncle and father were in the Royal Navy, and that “their other brother was very much a military guy. He was shot by the IRA in Northern Ireland.”
David Bellamy, reportedly a warrant officer in the Duke of Wellington’s Regiment, was killed outside an RUC station in West Belfast in October 1979. “It was quite a big thing at the time,” says his nephew, who was then 16 months old and hasn’t discussed it in print before. “From what I know, he was working undercover, and afterwards it was revealed he was in the SAS. It was very suspicious. He was machine-gunned 80 times. It was a statement.”
Bellamy has done his own investigations into the shooting. “I know people inside who have given me certain information.” Contrary to official reports, he doesn’t think the IRA was responsible. “It’s definitely something that had an influence on me. That’s what got me interested in things like false-flag operations [covert operations designed to appear as though they are carried out by others]. What goes on would shock most people. That Jack Nicholson quote in A Few Good Men – ‘You can’t handle the truth’ – it is true. The military are capable of taking out their own people if they want to. You can’t help but wonder.”
After Mexico, the Muse touring party – which numbers 80, but for the next stadium leg rises to 165 and has at its core a “family” of longstanding associates from back home in Devon – are scattering for a couple of weeks’ break. They then regroup for the festival and stadium leg of the 16-month-long Resistance world tour. Due to the volcanic ash cloud, Wolstenholme may have to rejoin his wife and children in Devon via a flight to Madrid and a hitched ride on a coach commandeered by tennis player Greg Rusedski. Howard lives in the South of France, but may be heading to Los Angeles. Bellamy has also been planning an LA sojourn. He’s been viewing real estate, including Christina Aguilera’s old mansion.
“I’m thinking of doing a six-month blow-out in LA. It seems like the right time to lose the plot and embarrass myself,” Bellamy says. “I’ll rent out some ridiculous Entourage-style house and lose it. Then come back to London and write a brilliant album.” But, as of this week, his holiday is on hold – “New York has come up.” There he intends to “hang out and relax and investigate new possibilities”.
Is this an unsubtle reference to Hollywood actress Kate Hudson? On the Sunday night at Coachella I sat behind Bellamy and saw him and a mystery blonde exchange greetings with Jay-Z and Beyoncé, then get cosy as they watched Gorillaz close the festival. Talking to me afterwards, he offered up the information that this was Hudson, with a grin. So, him, Kate, New York? “Ha ha!” he replies, trying – and failing – to keep it quiet. “Yeah, she’s sent her plane to come and pick me up,” he adds, jokingly. “She’s ordered me, ‘Come here. Come hither,’ ” he continues, I think not-jokingly.
He and Hudson first met “years ago” in Australia, “and we were both in relationships”. The actress was with her now ex-husband, Chris Robinson, singer with the Black Crowes; Bellamy was with his now ex-girlfriend, a psychologist he saw for seven years until they split last September. “But this time we met,” Bellamy beams, “and we weren’t.” I suspect he’s winking under those shades.
some days ago, esther and i tried to figure out at what point our muse escalation actually started. well, we've been into the band's music for many years, but we've never been as obsessed with the band as we are now. obviously. it was pretty hard to point that out, because we had the feeling that the state we are now in already last for a while. but after an exhaustive research we found out that it just started three months ago. so that's the record of our muse escalation so far:
mid february 2010: our friend naischel aka the guru started to post her 30 seconds to mars fanfiction which i read regularly.
early march 2010: esther and naischel came to hamburg on esther's b-day and to see 30stm playing in the sportshalle. some days of real hamby craziness.
late march 2010: i was bored and started to check out other fanfiction storys on fanfiktion.de. i found out that there were even stories about slipknot - and about muse. so i started reading them. told esther about that and she tried to convince me to buy the muse champion lounge ticket for the bern gig this summer. unfortunately, i had no 300 euros for doing that.
easter, early april 2010: being at home with my lovely girls. being able to complete my music archive on my mp3 player - finally!
18 april 2010: following muse on twitter; discovering the musewiki; posting on facebook: "i'm in love with muse".
19 april 2010: started to make a research on muse via youtube and from that day watched almost every fucking video on there with dom, matt and chris. posting them furiously on facebook for esther, making all of my other friends mad.
starting to write the first chap of my muse fanfiction and telling esther about it.
facing her with the serious plan to go to see muse live this summer.
facebook entry's saying: "okay, i'm starting to get obsessed"
22 april 2010: wearing my dom-dedicated green throusers and ordering "out of this world" by mark beaumont via amazon
25 april 2010: the plan to go to wembley in september grows in our minds... maybe also caused by the haarp vids and twitpics we consumed.
facebook entry: "okay, i need to stop that muse thing". two of my fb friends liked that.
26 april 2010: facebook entry: "dom, i love you. now it's said!"
28 april 2010: wembley! tickets! bought!
that was the point of no return. sometimes we got the impression that the level of escalation is getting lower - but it's actually rising again every fucking time, even higher! it really feels like being thirteen and a boygroup fanatic again, but much better because this time we know it's worth it for the music. only for music! and because this band is unique and epic. these guys really are.
this week we booked our flights to london. our whole live is directed to that week in september. we're on our way.
Oh, 1999…Columbine, Bill Clinton’s impeachment, Californication, The Battle of Los Angeles, Enema of the State, Mr. Oizo, the reunion of Modern Talking, Germany’s most dangerous band.
What have you not?
The end of the century was nigh.
Cell phones were unheard of in our peer group.
We were 16, recently graduated, high on lemon ice tea, chocolate chip cookies and Gavin Rossdale.
The Rodgau Casi Kingz had just been founded, and almost instantly recorded one of their greatest hits: the glorious, Bloodhound Gang-inspired Burn Meisenknödel, Burn – a modern classic. Back off, Guerrilla Radio!
‘It has to start somewhere; it has to start sometime – what better place than here, what better place than now? Oh hell, can’t stop us now!’
Needless to say we skipped our graduation to attend our first festival that summer. Needless to say we weren’t even half as cool as we thought. Southside festival in Munich, three girls who thought Courtney Love was the coolest chick in the world, had wet dreams about Gavin Rossdale and a little teenage angst of die-hard Marilyn Manson fans. We were excited to see bands like Bush, Hole, Massive Attack, Blur, Placebo and Live.
And we used to look like this:
left to right: Marion, Esther, Naischel
It was 1999 too, that saw three twenty year olds on their first tour in Germany.
Needless to say they played that particular Southside festival we attended. It’s been 11 years almost to the day.
Needless to say we had never heard of this band Muse. And therefore didn’t see their gig. And have regretted it ever since. If only we had known back then what we know by now.
Regrets are worthless. Would we really have gone mental for these guys?
left to right: Chris, Dom, Matt
I try to convince myself I had been aware by late 1999 of a single called MuscleMuseum and a record called Showbiz. In reality it wasn’t until 2000 that I saw the music video for the first time and not until 2002 that I bought the record to complete the back catalogue. Looking and listening back now, I don’t have a clue why this didn’t immediately catch our attention. We were in the midst of puberty. Songs about the fatigue of small town life and the struggles of relationships should have talked to us – it was what we went through right there and right then. ‘Controlling my feelings for too long’ – the title track of the record should have been our anthem.
But falsetto and weird guitar sounds weren’t necessarily the weapons of choice for us three 99ers. Gallagher-ism had made our ears temporarily deaf for such diamonds like Hate this and I’ll love you, which to my mind is actually the better version of Beyonce’s Single Ladies, nonchalantly stating ‘I’m so over you, dipshit’. A song like Sober which takes the piss out of conformity with Matty spitting out the lines ‘You’re so solid’ – eternal truths. The only explanation for our ignorance applies to our whole history with this band: we just weren’t ready. Part of me thinks we will never really be.
If something like this can grow in as unlikely a place as small-town Devon…then you should prepare yourself, world, for what is about to come out of small-town Rodgau.
My 2010 version of the play list I wish I had had on my walkman in 1999:
especially for his birthday esther and i invented a new nickname for maffoo: the german expression is "giftzahn", but you could translate it as "poison tooth" if you wanted to. if you can't imagine why please take a look at that pic:
but i must admit that i liked the rock am ring performance even better - maybe because of the "more rock set" muse wanted to play their harder songs to compete with metal ass bands like slayer. well, i guess they won (genius story about the UFO interruptiong slayer's tv broadcast and even their show. hahaha!)
and the two interviews for german mtv and swr3 das ding has just been incredibly funny!
so that has been a nice muse week so far. and esther shopped off her ass in london with dvds, the nme special issue plus the q magazine and is studying the early muse years right now. i hope to see some of the results soon in here!
okay, its a fucking UFO!!! muse are becoming insane, but WHO CARES?!
wish we could have been there, too. this stage looks amazing!
tomorrow gonna be the craziest day ever: naischel will be @batschkapp frankfurt to see 30 seconds to mars (and propably getting married with j), esther is flying to london and my girl monsn is visiting me in hamburg for the weeekend. it's gonna be MENTAL!
and on saturday there will be muse's rock am ring performance broadcasted live via mtv germany. love it!
